I'm going on a gameshow soon, some friends applied and got on so I thought I'd give it a go. In the information package I had a sheet of questions about myself. One of the questions was name your weaknesses and strengths. I could come up with plenty of weaknesses but not many strengths. Could I list one of my strengths as being 'an expert of failure'. Prob not, because it is negative in itself, but it certainly feels true.
This semester I'm finishing off my last uni suject (one that I had failed last year). It is visual art ~ the final bump in the road. Growing up as a child, I was always praised as being a wonderful artist and my handwriting was oh so neat. So I choose to do visual art at uni to accompany my education degree.... a natural attraction. But any initial confidence was bludgened down by the moody and unapproachable teachers that I didn't know how to please. And that barely taught the fundamentals. They taught you something briefly and it was never repeated again. For instance, a crucial demonstration on colour-mixing went for 10mins and that was it. I didn't 'get it', so was thereafter lost. Because I did't learn THEIR way I failed numerous times. And now here I am on my sixth and final art subject... and I'm reading 'Acrylic Painting for Dummies'.
I suppose I lacked the initiative to find outside help... but they didn't provide the support for that. I think it's an important role as a teacher to support your student and LESSEN the impact of anxiety about a given subject. Skilled painting seems unachievable to me and I think it's really unfortunate.
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